204.9
That's what i weight. Right now. 4:32 PM on January 25, 2011. However: I have on a t-shirt, long underwear and cotton socks.
My goal is to lose 5 pounds by the end of February. 199.9 or less.
It'll be easy provided I :
1. continue avoiding the crap food I see shoveled out and displayed all around work (blinders please).
2. continue eating smart and in good portions.
3. eating smart also means knowing what to eat and when to eat (or when to eat certain foods).
4. my exercise. emphasis cardio w/ a side dish of weight resistance. 5 times a week, minimum and a stretching day for bonus.
5. regular sleeping habits. I need a minimum of 7 hours. Important to keep my metabolism in balance or I' m wasting my time.
6. Stay emotionally healthy. This impacts all the above.
Well..... now I have it recorded.
And on that note I have to say (I don't know if she's reading this or not), but I was really stupid a few nights ago and spoke something I deeply and truly regret. I hurt the person I love the most in this world.
You know, it's one thing for people to take shots at me. It sucks, but I walk on. But there is no worst feeling I have felt than to have hurt her. That's different. Now I have trouble sleeping at night, I don't want to come to work, or even eat. What can I begin to say or do? I feel like I have absolutely no credibility with her.
Right NOW I really am the Biggest Loser!
I know I'm in the dog house. I'm OK with that.
I only hope I haven't done some irreparable harm to the trust and respect that she had in me. Those feelings she had for me mean more to me than I knew.
And I hope I can come out of the dog house and hear her talk excitedly about our future together again. Soon.
